Don't hold on, Just move on

Sunday, October 18, 2009

SUP PPL!!! Haha, haven posted in quite a while...kinda busy with preparations for Os and some personal stuff....nt much to say, but i tink im gona be quite busy for the next wk or so....:(
Cant wait to pick up my bowling ball and bowl again, its been way too long

CIU :

I dun noe wat the hell u hav against me, and frankly, i dont give a damn. U can hate me for all u wan, but the way u hav been doing things, ur starting to push ur luck. Jus bcus i dun take any action or dun even look ur way, doesnt mean that i did nt hear wat u say, esp since its so heng tat say it every time im near. Well, its jus one more day, i can still take it. But if i see u again, even if its ten years later, its gona be all too soon. Oh, and i know tat ur eyes come roaming on my blog, but how bout this, SCREW OFF. Go poke ur nose into sm1 else or ur own life, considering how pathetic it is. If ur unhappy, y dun u jus dance to the red light district and 'happy'? Tat is, if any1 wans u.

Oh, tat feels much better. Well, one of my problems is almost solved, but if i wan a 100%, im gona hafta work much harder. I gota work for my Os as well, its in 8DAYS!!! Well, time to go off, gona meet darryl, yishi and wendy for studying. BYE!!!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

U shld be urself no matter wat

Fabian seow

17-sep-2009 8:22pm

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Haha, nice rite? tats PART of a msg he sent me in response to my chain letter of using one word to describe me.... Hey, i find tat kinda meaningful. So far, i hav seen ppl change so much bcus of various reasons, so much so tat i tink tat they are no being themselves anymore. This will be smthing i will rmb my whole life. NV BETRAY URSELF

I jus realised that there are smthings in class tat are getting fun....haha, in case ur wondering, im toking abt a certain gossip guy (only tat he is totally not hot). Theres nth more fun than watching him get irritated by my comments..HAHAHA!!!! Bitch all u wan abt me, 'boy', i dun reali care. After all, wat can u do?? Gossip loudly behind my back??? Hey, i nv realised tat using a girl's method to squabble could be tat fun!!! Go ahead with watever u wna do, in my eyes, ur jus a pathetic backstabber who takes ppl's kindness and throws it back at them. Haha, smtimes i feel stupid when i use the girl's method. But, WHO CARES!!! ITS FUN!!!

Damn, tmr gona go see chinese sinseh, got an injury on sunday tat got worse after bball ytd-.-

Hmmm, well, it looks like things are taking another turn.... Jus when one is beginning to revert back to normal, another one is starting to transform to an undesired form, and its almost complete.

Well, jus a post of my thoughts, nth much to write. haha. SEE YA

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Haiz, emath mock exam again.....-.- paper 2 this time. But quite ok luh. Tink i shd be able to score...haha

After tat, went with amarpreet for lunch, at swensens..haha. Rebekah and Ethel joined after tat and we had a gd tok. Girls, thanks for trying to cheer me up by tinking of reasons y things happened and helping me straighten out my thoughts. Yes, i admit, i am one tat values friendship alot. I hav thought at the different reasons myself as well, but, i realised tat those werent possible reasons

Then, went home to get my phy bks b4 meeting gabriel at woodlands mrt to go to mr cheong's house. Haha, i asked him abt the CRO and transformers. Well, i can say tat i understand it now...hope i wont 4get abt it.

Well, apparently, ppl hav been noticing tat things are going on...got tat obvious uh??? Haha, i don know. Im still confused abt things myself

Over the past few days, i realised tat there are still ppl who will stand by me and help me, and im grateful for tat. Thanks ppl!!! At least i noe, no matter how, im nt alone. But i still yearn for my close bond to return

Let me ask u readers, if u lie to sm1, will u tok abt it smwhr where the person u lied to will find out? No rite? unless either u wan tat person to noe or u jus dun give a hoot...rite?

Oh, as a parting phrase, this is for sm ppl who is nt happy abt wat my posts and wat i write :
TAKE UR FREAKIN' EYES AND

GET THE HELL OUTTA MY

BLOG!!!! GO SLASH UR WRIST

OR SMTHING IF UR

BORED!!! CRAPASS

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Today, during chapel, Jinwan shared a pretty gd story, but it set me tinking, and i realise tat no matter how weird it seems, i seem to be going in her direction... OH HELL NO MAN.

Dumb! Dumb! Dumb!!! Tats all i can use to describe myself. I knew it was coming already...y was i so dumb as to continue believing??? After last nite, and 2 days ago, i realised tat history was indeed gona repeat itself.....u assured it wont happen and such, but i tink it doesnt really matter anymore does it??

Im now trying to get things back to the way it was. U said to shun qi zi ran, but how zi ran can u get if u keep avoiding me? Now after sch, u jus go off with ___. I asked where u were going, but u said duno, even though ur eyes were oredi going in ___ direction. But, i shd try nt to make a fuss outta it... i now tink its normal ba? Shdnt be too demanding, i shd be cheering u on help u more instead haha. Besides, I am close to stopping believing in wat u once told me, for u hav contradicted urself in jus these short few days. phhhfff, i dun even noe wat im toking abt...haha

Everything u told me recently jus doesnt make sense...i tried to ask and clear things up, but i jus cant get the answer.....

Im trying one last time to try to get things back to the way it was... But pls, im gona hav to nd u to work with me. Search deep down in ur heart and tink if whether i mean anything to u at all, whether u actually wan us to go nack to the way we were or whether the last 3 mths nv even existed. Things are going back in the direction as 2yrs ago. But, im hoping tat it wont.

Im counting on u now, brother....pls dun jus ask me to go with other ppl....its reali hard for me to let go, and i dun reali wan to.

For my readers, this post sounds emo doesnt it?? haha, tat seems like wat my blog is like. I must thank those who came forward with care when they knew. I believe tat everything happens for a reason, and this probably happened cus i had to take another path?? Or mayb its a test?? I am sad, for no1 has been able to knock me down this way before.

I AM DOWN, BUT I SURE AS HELL AM NOT DEFEATED. things will definately take a turn for the better. I jus hav to be patient...

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Woots!!! Friday again!!!

On tuesday went to swim with DS before going home to change up... met him and ezra at cwp to catch ALIENS IN THE ATTIC. Haha, dumb plot but heckuva funny man....imagine ur grandma doing street fighter moves...lol. Then went to ezra hse whr we met daniel chow and kelvin, and it was on to celebrate DS early bdae!!! had cake cutting b4 a karaoke session....haha, Kelvin was the most enthu, and i haven went so nuts in.....in....hav i ever?? After tat, went home, which was abt midnite....

Damn!!! i cant upload the fotos frm my camera cuz the stupid installation cd got problem!!!! !@#$%^&*

Then wed went to do work with gaby b4 LM came and we went to vista court to watch match b4 playing on our own..

Ytd, went sch, after sch, bkb for a while b4 going to gaby place cus he wanted to change....Wa piang, i tink we almost didnt make it out.... he kept slacking -.- Then went to my place for me to change b4 meeting Darell,KO, fabian, KY and jiaming for badminton followed by more basketball.... zzz, after tat left Faby and gab playing with some old uncles while the rest went home.... actually i oso went home but i came out again cuz faby promised to buy me supper XXPP

Haha, during supper, sm funny things happened....fabian, go find ur own gabriel XXPP

Sian, sm things hav been happening over the past 2 days....dun wna elaborate, but lucky i could control my temper....i almost lashed out.... damnit

And for ur case....im oso in a mess....i dun noe wat i shd do. Im afraid of making the wrong decision.... But then, if i dun do it, oso cnt leh...sian

Woah, long post, haha, sm of u may not understand it...well, ciaos!!!

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Hello people.....me back again...

Today, woke up, then went to bowl with deion and zoel.... man, am i rusty oredi, i bowled like crap. Moral of the story? If ur gona do any sports, dun stop for a month like i did, though i did it bcuz of my studies... Haha, deion at one part was made to do a forfeit cuz he lost : he had to say i love u to marcus oh.

Couldnt stay too long cus of dental appt, so went dinner with them at yoshinoya b4 going home, packing my stuff and going to dental. After appt, headed over to DS's crib to do work. ARRGGHHH!!! I stil got a bit to go for my chem TYS!!! And it all has to be done by FRIDAY!!! YIKESSS!!!!! Haha, reached home at ard 11pm.

Hmmm, it looks like im gona be right.....those words were only words to make me feel better.... but, im nt gona hold on much longer....slowly,bit by bit, im gona let go. Though my hopes are stil alive, im nt gona expect much... its time to move on, slowly but steadily.

Tats all folks!!!

Friday, September 4, 2009

NEWS BREAKING ANNOUNCEMENT : THE PRELIMINARY EXAMINATIONS 2009 HAS OFFICIAL COME TO AN END. TIME TO PARTY PEOPLE!!!!

Haha, lol. Today had the last 2 papers, physics and bio MCQ...do ray me fa so so la... haha. Butbut hor, we had to take the bio paper in the aircon-less classrm cus the others checking paper in the hall. After paper, went back to hall. Supposed to get back our english paper, but to my horror, MRS YEO WAS TALKING!!!! Reali long, but, it was quite motivating. Halfway, ms foo came to me. She looked at my leg, which was crossed. haha, i put it down b4 we both laughed. LOLLOL

After the long speech, got our Eng, Emath and Amath paper back. Eng, i will post abt it when we get back paper 1.
BUTBUT, JARREN LYE GOT A1 FOR EMATHS AND A2 FOR AMATH!!!!
Haha, lol
Pity karthi and minghui sia, mdm koh announced that she was specially inviting them to join 4/4 emath remedial during hols. JI PAI SEH YI SIA

After school, supposed to go vivo with the koropok and porokay gang, but then their timing to tight, so didnt go. Instead, went woodlands central with LM and gaby cus LM wanted pierce ear. Then went library do chem with them... and the whole way, mr neo was having an sms-athon

After tat, wanted to go yishun buy bag cus got sale, but then, when reach, found out that THE SALE WAS OVER!!! FREAKK!!!!

OH DAMN!!! Stanley jus had to go offline. Sian, no one to crap with liao... Nvm, go kajiao him nxt time i see him on9. Real Joker. Really like chatting with tat peanut

K la, time to sign off. Im in awe...after seeing benjamin's facebook fotos!!! HAHA!!! EVAN!!!